The thought also crossed my mind for the very first time to be a missionary. It wasn't that I would have ever said, "No, Lord, I won't be a missionary." I've always wanted the Lord's will for my life. I just had never thought I was called to be one. I think I thought there was this big revealing moment, an "aha" moment, so to speak, where a light shines down on you and you just know you're called to be a missionary. But I had never had one of those moments, so I naturally assumed that it was a sign that I wasn't called to be one. I still don't know that I'm called to be a missionary. I'm in the process of praying and seeing where the Lord leads me. I don't know, and I'm okay with that. Am I going to college? I don't know. Do I know what I want to do? Nope. Am I going across the world to be a missionary in Africa? Maybe. I don't know. *laughs*. And I'm okay with that!! I don't have to know what I'm doing in my life. I am fully expecting the Lord to lead me in whatever direction I need to go. I'm all for whatever He has. Am I scared to go across the world in possibly dangerous areas? No, because I know I will be in the palm of my Heavenly Father's hand. Again, I don't know that I'm called to be a missionary. It's just a whole new thought to me, and honestly, I am loving not being in the know. I put full trust in my Savior.
The reason I tell y'all all this is simply because I ask for your prayers. Pray for me as I start this new chapter in my life of letting go, and giving it all to the Lord. I don't need control. I've given it over to God, I have full trust that He's got this.